|
12:33 am
[Link] |
my new place
i now have a my space account. www.myspace.com/surfing_in_nebraska
you can find me there...
|
|
12:34 am
[Link] |
Gretchen
I don't know if anyone is reading this anymore...I don't write as often as i should. The girl I mentioned before has become an integral part of my life and i love her very much.
she will probably become my fiancee soon and i am grateful to have her in my life.
my job is good...i am back in wooster after a couple months of helping out in canton. finally my money won't be all spent on gas.
I am happy in many ways and i think this is a good place for me in my life right now.
|
|
10:37 am
[Link] |
going well...
looks like i may be getting a streak of good luck. found a great girl, we are dating now...
she is wonderful, very sweet and funny and um...all that other stuff that it is crude to bring up lol.
my job is going very well and i like the company and i like what i do. i understand there is a promotion coming my way soon and i am obviously happy about that too.
-Matt
|
|
12:17 pm
[Link] |
still goin....
work is going well, i like the new job and especially the people i work for and with. big big difference from the last job. less stress and more fun.
things are going well...i have lost 25 pounds from working so much and eating so little lol.
guess i should have changed jobs a long time ago huh.
-Matt
|
|
10:01 pm
[Link] |
still going on the new job...
working a ton of hours but things are going well overall. I like the company and I like how the job is going. I am getting better at it and making new friends. I miss my old co-workers but i am sure they are doing fine.
I just started reloading for my guns and I really enjoy it but it's expensive...spend a lot to save a little. :)
I am not sure what to expect in the long run but so far I like the job. I wish I had more time at home, this 52 plus hours a week is a lot.
-Matt
|
|
10:24 pm
[Link] |
tons all at once
New job at CiCi's Pizza is good...long hours and training is a serious thing. I have a ton to study and work on and every minute of every day they are on me, making sure i am always thinking and always on my toes. this wears me out like crazy but i keep thinking it's worth it...good money and a good company to work for.
My great grandmother died on sunday this week...she was 97...died in her sleep and it was peaceful but it didnt keep me from the guilt of not going to see her when i could have when she DID know me. i went a couple times this week to sit with my grandpa, he shouldn't have to go alone.
she had dementia aftera couple years and did not know us but still i know she would have come to see me if roles were reversed and i guess i am going to have to deal with it and make sure not to do it again with another family member...just so awkward in a rest home and with her not knowing me...what do you say?
-Matt
|
|
07:28 pm
[Link] |
glad i was ready to go to the new job because.....
I GOT FIRED on Monday. the boss's bitchy wife came by and created this huge problem and tried to get me to fight with her, insulted me and then asked me what i had to say about it. i didnt fight with her because i knew that was what she wanted.
so she canned me because i said i would be looking for a new job. i gave them that information so they would know and be able to get someone else ready. i was being professional.
so much for being a nice guy. and to top all that off they wont pay me my vacation and they said they are going to do anything they can to make sure i dont get unemployment.
nice huh? after 5 years of a pretty close relationship with the owner.
what a bunch of shit. and when i called him to say goodbye he wouldnt answer his phone that he answers EVERY time. he let it go to voice mail. what a spineless asshole.
so i sat around sad all day and then got a call and an offer from a pizza place i interviewed at. they offered me $5,000 more a year to come work for them.
so i am taking a week off and starting there. :)
fuck subway.
-Me
|
|
11:17 am
[Link] |
new news for once
Been a while since I updated this...
My life has been going in circles for a couple years and I just hung on thinking it would change. I know now that I have to initiate the change so here I go.
I got an opportunity to change jobs and make a hell of a lot more money. I am going for it. I have made too many mistakes by hiding where it feels comfortable. I am going to go out on that limb and see what happens.
CiCi's Pizza, here I come!
-Matt
|
|
06:40 pm
[Link] |
nothing new as usual
still paying bills and living life. Nothing new or exciting...
I went deer hunting with Joe and Dad and a friend of Dad's and we had a fun couple of days but no one got a deer. I got a shot at one but it was 80 yards away and i had to shoot offhand and either i missed or dad's gun, which i was using, wasn't sighted in right. he missed with it too so i am thinking the gun needs worked on...
yeah...that makes me feel better lol, wasn't me. ;)
I am looking for a girlfriend...i am tired of being lonely and being a hermit and staying home all the time...gfs are hard to find apparently....or maybe its just me.
off to a poker game...
-Me
|
|
11:39 pm
[Link] |
lot about livin' and a little about love....
nothing new here, paying bills and making plans.
i may get to go to texas to visit my cousin Jeff this winter, that should be nice. It will be cool to see him. He left a couple months ago to be a cop in Tyler, Texas.
Otherwise, I am gearing up for hunting season, bought some new stuff i didn't really need and shot at the range to make sure everything is ready.
Operation Redneck is set to go.
;)
-Matt
|
|
12:56 am
[Link] |
more changes
my friend decided he wanted to do it all himself and make a little more money that way so whatever. i went to the bank and applied for a loan to consolidate my debt and save money but my ex screwde upo my credit by not sending in a bill correctly when we were married and since it was a medical bill it affected my credit by like 70 points, and i barely missed being able to get this loan. damn the slut.
so my grandpa saved the day by offering to lend me what the bank was going to, but without interest. that way i can save the interest money and fix my credit as i have time.
so this is working nicely.
finally a break...i have to make it count though...no buying stuff i dont need and i have to make myself save the amount i promised myself i would.
|
|
03:43 pm
[Link] |
not much new still
things are moving pretty slowly in my life lately but yet again i have a chance to hmake some cash by helping a friend buy a house and when he sells it in a year i will be able to make a few grand to pay some debt. so i am doing that.
been shooting a lot since i joined the range and i have been doing some reading and other than that not much of anything. life is moving pretty slow. i would like to be losing weight but so far nothing much. i really havent been putting effort into it so thats what ya get.
-Matt
|
|
10:30 pm
[Link] |
once again....
i havent posted much but in the last month i had a shot to pay off all my divorce debt and credit cards and everything and have a few thousand in savings. my mom found this nice little house that needs some work and is only a few minutes from here.
it was appraised at a sheriff's sale for $40,000 and an appraiser told me it was more like $50,000 and that if i did certain things to it, i could resell it at more like $59,000.
i jumped at the chance and with a few weeks of talking and arranging financing and talking to the bank guy and finding that dad and grandpa were willing to lend me some money and help work on it, i went for it.
and like everything else in my life seems to go, i didnt win it at auction so now i wasted everyone's time and made myself look stupid again and once more failed to get my business going and once again i am staying in my mom's fucking basement and being buried in bills.
is there some rule about me never improving myself?
|
|
07:18 am
[Link] |
my birthday
august 1 went well. i took the day off work, got paid and went shopping in canton at gander mountain for stuff i didnt need. i also went out to breakfast with my grandparents and out to lunch with mom. joe and sara and mom and i went to the akron aeros game and had a good time.
i got to relax all day and have fun, and got 70 bucks in money in cards, that was pretty cool. mom and grandpa and grandma and my dad all took good care of me in that department.
i did what i wanted to do, i decided i wanted to have "my ideal day" and i did. it was a great time and i am going to do it again next year.
|
|
07:11 pm
[Link] |
no news again
not all that much new....just hanging out and trying to make sense of life and love and all that stuff.
i am getting my savings built up decently and still able to buy shit i dont need. so i am doing well i guess lol.
-Me
|
|
11:52 pm
[Link] |
still nothing new
have a date this week...still trying to pay debt off and get ahead. i changed insurance companies because the old one was horrid.
i found some money i didnt expect to have...the new insurance company paid me 35 bucks for me having to pay for my truck having to be unlocked once. cool. i didnt expect to see that money again lol.
i am catching up and getting things accomplished and work has been ok lately. the drama from the week before has been solved as far as i know. he isnt being a jerk anymore, thats all i care.
i went shopping tonight and picked up a few things i needed...and a few i didnt lol. :)
i joined a shooting club and once i get my orientation done i can go shoot and hang out whenever i want. i am looking forward to that!
no other news, folks.
|
|
08:20 am
[Link] |
blah again
paying bills and trying to get ahead as usual.
one of my employees went nuts at work and started screaming and throwing a fit because i picked up an envelope and looked at it. it was placed where the mail goes and was already opened but not labeled. i checked to see if it was work related so i could let my boss know he had mail...and suddenly this guy starts accusing me of opening his mail and of being nosy and trying to start something....he followed me around, bitching and accusing and then when i tried to explain myself he called me a liar and got in my face and shoved my hat back on my head to yell at me closer. i told him to hit me or back the hell up. that sort of ended it. sort of.
this sort of thing happens all the time but with no physical contact. that crossed the line. so i am doing what i have to, since he literally would not let me talk to him yesterday.
i am writing him a letter about his behavior and i called the boss and emailed him a copy of what happened along with a copy of the letter.
it would be nice if people could act like adults but apparently they cannot.
|
|
06:07 pm
[Link] |
life, liberty, and the pursuit of sanity
joes wedding was saturday and went off without a hitch. everything was beautiful and we had a great time all weekend.
work is the same old, same old like always.
i am trying to simplify my financces and lose some weight. i am also getting glasses on august 6 so i will finally make the choice to see better and actually wear them. i think. lol
-Me
|
|
09:46 am
[Link] |
more from me
i spent a week in canada drinking, fishing, and hanging out with my dad and my uncle and grandpa. i had a great time, i got to totally relax for the first time in years and it was great.
i gave more thought to shannon's explanation and i think she was telling me the truth and i overreacted. she simply needed to do other "single" stuff and wasnt ready for a commitment. no big deal. imagine that, me overreacting. nahhh.
things are going well right now and i have my brothers wedding next weekend and i am a tad nervous about what i am going to say for the speech and i dont wanna screw it up for him. any ideas or tips?
-Matt
|
|
06:13 pm
[Link] |
news finally
hey imagine that i have news and its bad not good. didnt see that coming huh.
shannon broke it off with me tonight. basically she wants to go sow her wild oats and try new and different stuff and thinks a boyfriend would keep that from happening. also other odd comments she made and it pretty much makes me think iw asnt good enough for her. nice to know someone thinks that about you. really pumps the ol' self esteem.
so basically the only girl i have felt this way about for a long long time has dropped me and i am back to being the broke fat subway employee with the divorce debt and living with his mom.
can someone send me a bullet? something powerful because i dont wanna live through it and have to shoot myself a second time. i hear that sucks.
thanks to shannon for breaking it to me the day i leave for vacation so the whole fucking thing can suck and i can spend a week sitting by the lake thinking what a fucking tool i am and how i will be single until my junk rusts and falls off.
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
rangerboy8180's journal